XS ROCK: Tell me about the latest project news? Any new projects coming out, live shows or announcements?
I have really been trying to just let go so that I can make room for myself during this time, and experimenting. I have written some new music but I am trying to allow it to breathe whilst I discover what direction I want it to take. The pandemic has really given me time to re-consider what I am doing in music, and also why.
XS ROCK: So how long has the project been around?
This project has been around a few years.
XS ROCK: What was your main motivation for originally starting this project?
I have a few, I want to really challenge my own mind to think and speak (through songs) in new and sometimes uncomfortable ways. When I say uncomfortable I really mean out of my comfort zone. I want to try to really allow my feelings to emerge as I often repress them, and to allow them the room to just be. I didn’t want to be afraid of what this project might look or sound like I just wanted to be guided by a sense of exploration into sound and how I can tell stories in as transparent a way as possible. I don’t really feel I’m always there with that as it is an endless journey.
XS ROCK: What is your music background?
It’s a real mix. I have sung since childhood and I used to play classical flute. I started to write songs though about ten years ago.
XS ROCK: What image do you think your music conveys?
Honestly I want to leave that up to the listener. I really hope they connect sonically and lyrically but I would never want to dictate a feeling to anyone else. That is the joy and magic of music, that it allows us the freedom to feel whatever we want when we hear a piece of music, sometimes you can’t even put into words what you are feeling. I hope that people can find in this project a sense of familiarity.
XS ROCK: What are your current music career goals?
I just want to keep challenging myself to keep peeling away that onion to get to the core of what I’m trying to express. As long as people find something in that, and keep listening then I am really happy.
XS ROCK: Which do you prefer? Writing new songs and recording or playing for a live audience?
I would say that depends on what’s going on in my life. Right now I really value the introspection from being alone and writing new songs and just trying to get my heart to a stronger position than before. I do love to play live, but I am always critical of myself so it’s not a completely stress free environment.
XS ROCK: What are your songs’ lyrics about? (What specific themes do they cover?)
Breakdowns, memory and lately ‘Lovelessness’ and what that means. What I mean by that is this feeling that you are not enough to be and to find real love, the different types of love that we experience, and then what it means to loose that love, or nearly loose it. I am interested in examining the high highs and the low lows and how this really plays out in our dream state and through suppressed imagery in our mind.
XS ROCK: What is the single most important thing to you as a musician?
To be understood and listened to; not in a literal sense but in a soul sense.
XS ROCK: Do you have any outrageous tour stories from the road? If so, please fill us in.
Not yet.. but check back when the pandemic is over..!
XS ROCK: What’s the strangest request that you’ve ever received from one of your fans?
I don’t really receive anything bizarre it is more of a community of like minded people who like this music whom don’t have egos.
XS ROCK: Are your friends and family supportive of your choice to play music?
Oh yes.. they want me to be happy.
XS ROCK: What advice do you have for new artists trying to get started?
Just begin. There is always going to be someone whom you look to and compare yourself to but you just need to focus on yourself, your own vision and your own sound. The hardest part is starting sometimes. I recommend just not trying to dictate everything too much.
XS ROCK: What are your favorite tracks to play live?
It really depends on what I am going through, right now I just like playing alone with a home made margarita some very folk inspired music.
XS ROCK: Which band or artist inspired you to perform? Why?
PJ Harvey has this incredible dissonance to her that I really admire. I just love her melodic structures, her lyrics and her vision of the world. Also Phillip Glass.
XS ROCK: If you could design a dream tour for your band, who would be on the bill?
I actually would really love to have other new artists on the road, artists that are thrilled to be there so we could all experience it together..so no one famous.
XS ROCK: What do you consider your greatest accomplishment so far?
Finding a sense of peace still when I play by myself, I am glad to have music as a form of therapy and exploration.
XS ROCK: If you weren’t performing in a band what kind of career do you think you would have?
I would probably be making films. I was a photographer for a long time and I love visual story telling of all kinds. I also love painting but I don’t have the discipline for it… I have a lot of liic dreams so I am always waking up with story ideas.
XS ROCK: What type of equipment do you use for live shows?
A lot of pedals and just pure noise! It really, all jokes aside, depends on the venue. I’m happy to play acoustic and I have been doing that a lot since the pandemic happened on IG live and FB live.
XS ROCK: What do you think of the current music scene?
There needs to be a ton of growth for women in the music industry and we are hugely overdue a shift in this area… we still don’t find a ton of female songwriters making money from their hard work, and this really needs to change. There is no equality right now, so for now the music scene is very bias. One particular way in which we need to evolve is our perception of women and the image they portray. We need to see more representation of women from vastly different backgrounds, who look different, sound different, and have vastly different points of view. We are not fragile little wall flowers, we are warriors and we are 50% of the human race… We need to see more women wearing whatever the hell they want whenever they want (baggy clothes, tight clothes whatever). It’s always been fine for a man to be in a band and be weird but if a woman does this you better believe someone will judge her for not looking ‘hot’. On a personal note I want to be free to be weird, and to non-conform to any idea of what a woman in music ‘should’ look like, as determined by an old white man in an office at a record label that doesn’t represent the true breadth of music people actually like to hear…
Record labels still have a very narrow minded and limited perception of what type of music is deemed acceptable by the masses.. but we are as people much more complicated that that. We don’t want to just sing about a breakup, we want to sing about climate change, the frustration of being a woman, inequality, and about anything we want. We need to change our perception of women in music period.
XS ROCK: For anyone that doesn’t know you, what would they be surprised to know about you?
I’ve been homeless.
XS ROCK: Is there anything that you’d like to promote or say to your fans out there?
Keep safe stay sane and rock on..
XS ROCK: Thanks again for taking the time to talk with us at XS ROCK!